In The hopes of a New, Happier Life

After not only losing ground
After hitting bottom in my downward spiral
I finally hold my hand out for much needed help.
I started to get treated for depression,
But I knew that wasn't the only thing wrong.
That's all they would do!

In the grasps of depression.
The feelings of worthlessness, and not willing to leave home.
My Wife slept with a Kid!
Then claims that he was a better lover.
T Knew it was a lie, just to cause more pain!

I ran not only from her, but the state!

Now I live in Connecticut,
I am finally getting help with methadone, medical assistance, and better mental health services.

I got my welbrutin, Imatrex, and others
I knew I still needed help.

I was hiding behind the label of Adult attention decifit disorder
I took a "net" test, it sounded like my life...
But I guess it was only a small part.

After a minor barrage of simple questions.
I've been diagnosed as Bipolar.
Whatever that meant!
Now even though I don't really like taking pills,
But here comes another shit load!

But hey, as long as they help!
That is all I care about!!!

I al looking forward to being,
Focused, happy, mellow, and even level.

Now maybe, just maybe,

I'll be able to get going on my New, Happier Life.

Joe M.
8-17-04

This was written 2 days after being diagnosed as Bipolar